I thought I’d post some thoughts of late in what ever order I can think off.
> I have been feeling low quite a bit lately. In fact its becoming more frequent, and I don’t like this at all. I feel low for next to no reason, but it kinda like drains all my positivity away leaving me feeling like a shell of my former self.
> I have to make big decisions in my life now. I feel like now I’m 25, I need to make life steps to making my life what I want it to be. Opposed to what others think is best for me.
> I have been hanging out with my friends of late, but due to feeling low at some points, I feel as though I am not being the best me I can be.
> I have become lazy, or more so, let the lows take control of my life. Thus making me feel like a fat tub of lard that has the appeal factor of a fat tub of lard.
> I feel like I need to cry on someones shoulder. At least then I might be able to make some sort of change.
> I have started not enjoying the feeling of being empty. I feel like I have no direction in life.
> I hate coming home to nothing. My beds empty, cold and lonely. I want to spend time with others, but they all have someone they can go home too. I have a body pillow, my gaming tools and too much spare time.
> lastly. I have next to no work hours now. I have next to no money, and feel like I may have to go back to my parents house. I don’t want to do that.
I wish someone would read this, feel my pain and idk hold me close and say everythings going to be ok. But this isn’t a fairytale, most people only seem to only care about themselves (not all), & make more excuses then time for someone like me. If you will excuse me, I have a 3ds with pokemon and an empty bed to go too.